Tuesday, May 23, 2006

A Slight Return

Changing priorities have left Blog Van Tango untouched for too long. Since returning home from Linz (over a month ago now) I have been making as much of an effort as possible to put off doing job applications (I'm getting quite used to being unemployed, you see) by visiting Kat, grandparents, friends and, most recently, ATP. I also had a phone interview last week which was actually quite pleasant, and made me realise that not all recruiters are evil/stupid/horribly lazy.


Like the swans, May has been all about opposites. Joy has been tempered with despair, good fortune with bad luck, and excitement with frustration. I've enjoyed being back at home and being able to see everyone again, but I haven't accomplished all I wanted. Haven't found time to see and call everyone I wanted to, and haven't spent enough quality time with those who I have seen. I'm finding it hard to focus when it seems there's so much to do at the moment, there's always something at the back of my mind when in conversation, and for that I apologise. I hope it doesn't continue for long.

I'm itching to get back to London. Even if means pushing through grumpy suited (gentle)men in a desperate attempt to get a handrail space every morning, I want to be available again; I'm craving independence.

My granddad isn't too well at the moment. It's strange seeing him so ill when all my life he's been the most active member of the family for, well, ever. His frustration at not being able to do the things he wants is more than obvious. I went down to visit for a couple of days, to try and cheer him up and help Gran around the house. It was the first time I've ever seen her cry.

I promise the next post will be less heavy.